Life is so weird sometimes. There are days I think I have it all figured out and I am SO comfortable in my skin… And then there are days my world feels like its falling down around me and I can’t even focus on one thing for more than 20 minutes because my mind is running a million miles an hour. Unfortunately, these past weeks have been filled with too many days that the world seems to be ending and to be honest, I am finally comfortable with coming out and saying that to my social media family! Too many people sit each day & night thinking the world is on their shoulders and that they’re ALL alone. Not enough people come out and show the world that the struggle IS VERY REAL. The biggest thing I have tried to continually focus my blog around is just my everyday basic life. I don’t go on shoots and set up a picture perfect setting to be in or around… I just make things work with whatever is around me. I applaud the bloggers that make time to create those beautiful imagines, but for me it just doesn’t work in my life right now. Honestly, I don’t want to make it work. I LOVE spending time with my husband and our friends and I looooove my couch time after a 10 hour day at work. That’s me and I am finally coming to peace with that. I use the word SHOULD a lot in my life and I will never forget one of my therapist (yes, I am openly saying I have had therapy… It’s good for the soul) telling me that the word ‘should’ was her least favorite word ever. She said it was because people then continually put more and more on their plate and become harder on themselves with things they think/believe SHOULD be taking place. I love this mindset. You can’t live positively if you constantly think you should be doing something more.
Just like everyone else in life, Kirby and I have a million and one things going on. Traveling to visit family, traveling for ourselves, goals we have set for the future, long days/nights at work… The list goes on. When I write it out it seems silly that I am waking up in the middle of the night stressing about these things, but it’s happening, and sometimes that’s just how the cookie crumbles. I'm constantly learning to take one thing at a time, but some days are better then others.If every day was perfect in life, I can assure you I would get bored. I think the most important thing I have learned as I’ve gotten older is that the people you keep in your life, surrounding you through the good and the bad, is the most important and crucial part to happiness. It’s obviously a mindset on your own, but to having a great support system makes it nearly impossible to completely fail. Yes, you may take MANY steps back throughout life, but you will be pushed back into amazingness with the love from the best people in your life.
The pictures shared are from my #ootd on Monday. All pictures were taken in the alley behind our house in front of someone else's garage because the color was better then ours. Also, my dress is wrinkly due to sitting in traffic for 30 minutes on our way home... LIFE 🙂
I hope everyone is having a beautiful Wednesday!
C.J.
